Thursday, March 22, 2012

Post 41:: Hello, Please Have Sex With Me

Something is going on in my life right now, that I can't really explain. It's complicated. My heart's all twisted up and weird and I don't know who to turn to except. . myself.
Because really, it's my personal choice, and no one else can decide it for me.
Although I really, really wish that they could.
The thing is. . . that . . .
I know what I need to do.
It's so obvious which one I should be with.
But I can't force myself to hurt the other one.

Anywayy, enough cryptic nonsense.
"Stop saying, 'i know how you feel'. How could anyone know how it feels ?" <--Nightwish, "Song Of Myself".

Ohh, let's talk about Nightwish for a bit.
OMG TARJA'S AMAZING ANETTE SUCKS ASS LOLOLOLOLOLOL OMG
uhhh, no. . . . kidding.
I love Anette.
Have you guys heard Imaginaerum ?
 I downloaded it the dayy it was released in the UK [. .  . erm]] >.>
And yeahh, i've been listening to it pretty much on repeat since then. It's kind of amazing, I really need to buy the actual album.
In my opinion, it's their best album. Wishmaster was really good, Once was really good, and Dark Passion Play was pretty awesome as well, some of my favorite Nightwish songs are off of DPP. "The Islander", and "Amaranth", for example. Also the bonus track "The Escapist". "The Escapist" is probably my favorite Nightwish song, next to "Amaranth". And then there's Imaginaerum and i'm like 'THIS WHOLE ALBUM IS MY FAVORITE SONG"
Although the album-title-song confused me. Track 13, "Imaginaerum" is an instrumental. It's amazing, and wonderful. However, in the special edition of the album, there's an instrumental version of every song. . . including track 13. And here's the best thing: The two instrumental "Imaginaerum"s are different lengths.
They're not the same time.
Lol. . . what. . . .

Moving right along at our usual clipped pace, I've decided to start gardening this year. I used to grow beans. . . and that was fantastic. They grew taller than my dad, which I found to be an accomplishment because I was like 12 or so and I thought my dad was really tall. [he's about six feet tall. I'm 5'6" so he's not that tall to me anymore.Especially after dating someone who's 6'4"]]
So todayy I cleaned out two different soil boxes, and I started soaking some pea-seeds, so I'll be planting those later todayy when my friend Gabri comes over.
We're going to be going to the midnight premiere of The Hunger Games.
Wooooo !
I should be more excited. . and I was, earlier, but. . now I'm worried about someone.
So I'm not half as excited as I should be.
I worry about this person a lot, actually.
They have something to do with that decision-thingy I was talking about up there ^^^^^

Gosh
It's really hard to blog about my life
When I can't tell you about it
Isn't it. . .

There's someone I really like
And it's a problem.
That's all.