It was all that I wanted
The only words you could say
But you took me for granted,
you didn't take me away.
Every Night/Holding myself/I just wanted/one little thing/to hear you say/"You're so. . . "
I tried for you, so hard
Pretended that I cared
Every word glass and each look scarred
i don't want to be running scared
Anymore
Take me. . . .out of here
Every Night/Holding myself/I just wanted/one tiny thing/to hear you say/"You're so. . . "
Press your lips to my wrist
Kisses sharp as razor's bliss
Your love is hurting me
Do you even care ?
Words will never hurt me unless left unsaid. Every Night/Holding myself/I only wanted/one thing. To hear you say
"You're so f*cking special to me."
Friday, September 23, 2011
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Post 26:: Green Day, NaNoWriMo.
I thought I would start this off with some Christmas for you::
And here's how Green Day pranked AFI::
Now, anyone who knows me, knows that these are my two completely favorite bands in the world. When theyy toured together, I was more excited then you will ever be in your entire life. Guaranteed.
And I want to see American Idiot on Broadwayy, but the website for tickets is all like, we're too cool to have your tickets until September 30th, and we won't even tell you what price theyy are.
. . . Jerks.
Also, I'm doing NaNoWriMo again this year !! My novel is called 'The Thing About Angels", here's my NaNoWriMo page:: http://www.nanowrimo.org/eng/user/672840
If you're doing NaNoWriMo, that'd be awesome add me as a writing buddy. [=
This was my novel last year::
Sadly, I never did finish that novel. I got up to 20,000-something words, and then I got too busy and I didn't have time, and when I did have time, I blew it off to talk to Aidan. . . I'm a fool, I know. But here's a link to what I have written thus far: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Nyvr4cXxmMsdZpSE0loA2B6tXGc6fgGY1sP2V8zMJ78/edit?hl=en_US
I don't know if I'm ever going to finish it. A lot of people have told me that they love it and that they want me to finish it, but. . I don't know.
My second-cousin VictorianAndroid made a wonderful point in her comment on my last post-- what if my face got paralyzed because of me piercing it ?. . . So I took it out, and I'll get it professionally pierced some other time. . . like in a few months, when I'm 18 and can get it anyway. :3
[also, I took it out because it hurt. . .not just because of the face-paralyzing thing. O.o]]
One more thing before I go::Godly Song Of The Angels <---beautiful string arrangement of a beautiful song.
And here's how Green Day pranked AFI::
Now, anyone who knows me, knows that these are my two completely favorite bands in the world. When theyy toured together, I was more excited then you will ever be in your entire life. Guaranteed.
And I want to see American Idiot on Broadwayy, but the website for tickets is all like, we're too cool to have your tickets until September 30th, and we won't even tell you what price theyy are.
. . . Jerks.
Also, I'm doing NaNoWriMo again this year !! My novel is called 'The Thing About Angels", here's my NaNoWriMo page:: http://www.nanowrimo.org/eng/user/672840
If you're doing NaNoWriMo, that'd be awesome add me as a writing buddy. [=
This was my novel last year::
"Synopsis: The End Of Your Rainbow
This summer vacation, Charlotte finally goes off to find the end of the rainbow and follow her dreams. But her imagination could be the death of her. . .
Excerpt: The End Of Your Rainbow
""I’m sitting on a tree branch, and I'm realizing that i don’t even know what kind of tree this is. It isn’t a maple, or an oak, or an elm, or any of those types of trees. The shape of the leaf looks like a six pointe star, and the bark isn’t rough at all. It’s smooth, like a birch’s bark, only it’s not all peely and weird. Plus the bark is light blue... the leaves are green, though. It’s like a throwback to the Real World, textures of everything here are weird, and they’re all the wrong color, and then finally something is normal and it seems weird to me. Maybe I am losing touch with the Real World..."""
I don't know if I'm ever going to finish it. A lot of people have told me that they love it and that they want me to finish it, but. . I don't know.
My second-cousin VictorianAndroid made a wonderful point in her comment on my last post-- what if my face got paralyzed because of me piercing it ?. . . So I took it out, and I'll get it professionally pierced some other time. . . like in a few months, when I'm 18 and can get it anyway. :3
[also, I took it out because it hurt. . .not just because of the face-paralyzing thing. O.o]]
One more thing before I go::Godly Song Of The Angels <---beautiful string arrangement of a beautiful song.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Post 25:: It's Like A Vlog Only Not Really.
So, first of all, TABLING WAS AWESOME. The bands all sucked. . Bring Me The Horizon, Parkway Drive, Iron Eye, and two other bands playyed, and theyy all sounded the same. Bring Me The Horizon was s l i g h t l y better than the other bands. . .
My favorite part of the concert was when the lead singer of Parkway Drive screamed, 'Where the f*ck is my circle pit ?!! WHERE THE F*CK IS MY GODDAMN CIRCLE PIT ?!!!!!" and then everyone formed a circle pit.
There was this one guy who was somewhere in his 30's that kept hitting on me. . and he was like, 'I'm just standing here because Iron Eye sucks and you're sexy" and I was like, 'yeahh, theyy do suck. . " And later he told me I was hot. And I went, 'I know," and he laughed and said, 'you get that a lot ?" and I honestly replied that yes, I did. And he nodded and said, 'well at least you don't try to downplay it." And then there was this guy who was about 19 or 20 and he kept passing by me to go outside and smoke between the sets, and every time he passed me, he would sayy hi, or wave, or give me spirit fingers. And the last time he passed me, he said, 'you're still cute as hell," and kept walking so I didn't have time to respond. After that, we were done with our tabling, so I bought a 'MEAT SUCKS" shirt and I got my dad, who had driven me, and we left.
This is my dad in the car::
This is me after tabling. The lighting makes me look hideous::
I bet you're all like, 'whyy would anyone hit on her ?!!" right now. But trust me .. it's the lighting. O.o
Anddd this is me in my new, amazing shirt. And gingerbreadman pajama pants. Wut.::
My favorite part of the concert was when the lead singer of Parkway Drive screamed, 'Where the f*ck is my circle pit ?!! WHERE THE F*CK IS MY GODDAMN CIRCLE PIT ?!!!!!" and then everyone formed a circle pit.
There was this one guy who was somewhere in his 30's that kept hitting on me. . and he was like, 'I'm just standing here because Iron Eye sucks and you're sexy" and I was like, 'yeahh, theyy do suck. . " And later he told me I was hot. And I went, 'I know," and he laughed and said, 'you get that a lot ?" and I honestly replied that yes, I did. And he nodded and said, 'well at least you don't try to downplay it." And then there was this guy who was about 19 or 20 and he kept passing by me to go outside and smoke between the sets, and every time he passed me, he would sayy hi, or wave, or give me spirit fingers. And the last time he passed me, he said, 'you're still cute as hell," and kept walking so I didn't have time to respond. After that, we were done with our tabling, so I bought a 'MEAT SUCKS" shirt and I got my dad, who had driven me, and we left.
This is my dad in the car::
This is me after tabling. The lighting makes me look hideous::
I bet you're all like, 'whyy would anyone hit on her ?!!" right now. But trust me .. it's the lighting. O.o
Anddd this is me in my new, amazing shirt. And gingerbreadman pajama pants. Wut.::
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I KNOW IT'S SIDEWAYYS, I'M SORRY ALRIGHT ? I can't fix it. .. because Blogspot's photo editing thingy doesn't have a rotate button, and I'm too lazy to go around fixing things like pictures that are sideways.
Just rotate your head, alright ?
So that's pretty much all that's going on. . . OHH, and I pierced my own eyebrow. With a safety pin. Because I'm badass-slash-stupid.::
It looks kinda weird in that photo. . there's not really a strange lump there. Anywayy, my parents don't know I did it because lucky for me my hair covers it up. Completely. So yay. I hope it doesn't get infected or something. I can see that happening now. . .The safety pin didn't get completely steralized, and the one little germ that was left on it decided to go and infect the piercing, soon the infection spreads to my eye and I go blind and my eyelashes start falling out, then my eye rots and slides out of the socket in a weird state of mushiness. . . .
Anywayy. I'm going to my best friend Julia's house now. So I will talk to you later. . . I LOVE YOU ALL [unless I don't]]
Friday, September 16, 2011
If I could, I'd change it all, But I can do nothing on my own, We'll have to go through this alone.
She waited for months and she waited for years
She kept trying to dispel the ever-growing fears
That maybe they were right, maybe they didn't belong
But she didn't want to believe it so she told herself they were wrong.
He wanted so badly to tell her the truth
He thought she deserved just that much.
But the skies rained down like poisonous touch
And she melted away from his grasp.
Eleven months later
And heaven is waiting
He wants to hate her
Emotions are trading
Emotions are invading
She wants him still
But he's too far to come back.
She kept trying to dispel the ever-growing fears
That maybe they were right, maybe they didn't belong
But she didn't want to believe it so she told herself they were wrong.
He wanted so badly to tell her the truth
He thought she deserved just that much.
But the skies rained down like poisonous touch
And she melted away from his grasp.
Eleven months later
And heaven is waiting
He wants to hate her
Emotions are trading
Emotions are invading
She wants him still
But he's too far to come back.
The icy nights framed by car headlights
Predictability lost it's top factor
Found my thoughts locked behind the back door
Wouldn't let them come in, and left them there.
Their jeering and their told-you-so's
Are just oh-so-much to handle
Opened my eyes and pretended not to see what was there
Your glassy face and your plastic stare
Tried so hard to fake it
Make you think you were worth it.
Took off your mask
And then you weren't worth shit.
Predictability lost it's top factor
Found my thoughts locked behind the back door
Wouldn't let them come in, and left them there.
Their jeering and their told-you-so's
Are just oh-so-much to handle
Opened my eyes and pretended not to see what was there
Your glassy face and your plastic stare
Tried so hard to fake it
Make you think you were worth it.
Took off your mask
And then you weren't worth shit.
Every single night she's waiting for his call
He's out with his friends and she's sick of it all
One message is all that she wants from him
She wishes that for once she could win
Their thoughts are like a one-sided game play
While she hits the ball, he runs away
They used to mean something
But now it's all nothing
Maybe they should end it. . . ?
Or should they befriend it ?
The awkwardness persists for the rest of the year.
"If I left you for her, would you still be here ?"
She said, "I'll always stay for you
I'd even run away with you
Please tell me if there's something I
Could do for you."
He told her "can you just leave my space ?
Get out of my life and away from my face
There's something you can do for me
And it's a small task for us both. . ."
She took a knife and a note
And drowned on the West Coast
He's out with his friends and she's sick of it all
One message is all that she wants from him
She wishes that for once she could win
Their thoughts are like a one-sided game play
While she hits the ball, he runs away
They used to mean something
But now it's all nothing
Maybe they should end it. . . ?
Or should they befriend it ?
The awkwardness persists for the rest of the year.
"If I left you for her, would you still be here ?"
She said, "I'll always stay for you
I'd even run away with you
Please tell me if there's something I
Could do for you."
He told her "can you just leave my space ?
Get out of my life and away from my face
There's something you can do for me
And it's a small task for us both. . ."
She took a knife and a note
And drowned on the West Coast
So confused for far too long. I could not let you go. What I thought was love classified as obsession. Look, I'm letting you go, just as you asked. And there you are, falling so fast. We both knew it would happen, but tender touches and tasteless poses kept us hanging on. You keep falling, spiraling, down. Stay beautiful. Stay beautiful. Eyes close and lips caress and fingers touch and you stay beautiful while you. . burn.
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